Back from the grave much.
I have a tendancy to not look at my computer very much anymore :3
Hawhaw. So, my art;
It's turning out less like art, and more like lines on a paper.
Distressing, a little. A couple people still think I'm just crazy. But lemme ask you something!
If you sit in front of an art work long enough, does it all fall apart?
SHould that happen? I was previously pleased with my skills. Now everything i draw just really.. bothers me. There's no.. Emotion. A lack of colour and movement
There's just NO more feelign behind a lot of what I do.
Weed's PROBABLY the main motivator on my lack of motivation.
But I don't even smoke THAT much anymore;
Where did I fall off the tracks? Life should be happier, and yet, I just get mad and frustrated.
I'm reminded how much I lack motivation by others too, so it's not just my motivation.
Words don't explain anymore.

If I could describe the way I feel, I'd give the example of tea cup, with no one watching where they're pouring..
Messy, so much spilled everywhere other than the cup. But still filling.
I'm filling to the brim.
I don't want to overflow. I think this would be.. more along the lines of an emotional breakdown.
Relax. Breathe. Life's not that hard.
Just remember what you wanted when you first started living for yourself.
It's not that easy.